Saturday, November 26, 2011

Choosing to enjoy Kansas City....and my first church denomination adventure...

I once served a table who this particular couple was from England and after talking about me just moving to Kansas City, they informed me that they think that Kansas City is America's best kept secret. I have yet to hold that opinion... however, with my mindset in a determination to enjoy this season.. I have actually found a couple things that I really and truly enjoy about Kansas City....

#1: The speed of Missouri trains.... it's amazing!!! "Unstoppable" speed!!!



#2: The Plaza lit up in Christmas lights!!
           * i work on the plaza.... and last night I started my shift at 4 (when it was still light outside)... and in Friday night funness...we stayed pretty busy and my section was in the back of the restaurant away from any windows... towards the end of the night, I went up to the host stand to see if we were to cut to the closing servers... and I looked out the window and the sight was breathtaking... The lighting of the Plaza was Thanksgiving evening which I heard so many incredible things about, but I chose to enjoy the night with my roommates instead...) All of the building covered in colored, gold, and white Christmas lights... gorgeous!! It was like one of those Christmas towns that people use to decorate their homes brought to life... it was beautiful!!! 

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That is my list thus far.. however, perspective really does make all the difference *smile*...

twenty-four days until I get to go home for Christmas!!! I am excited beyond words!!! I miss my family and all of my quality friends!!! I can't wait to just be with them, love on them, hug them, and share all of my family's quirkily incredible traditions!!! *smile*... these traditions are so quirky, but I love them and look forward to sharing them with my family... well, except for my sister, Ericka, because she is being a goober and staying in Texas instead of coming home for Christmas.  

CHURCH adventuring update.... (11.06.2011)
       * a few weeks ago, I went to a Methodist church for the first time... " The Church of the Resurrection Methodist Church" ... apparently it is the largest Methodist church in the country. The churches campus was huge! However, I did find a parking space relatively simply... walking inside, I was taken in with the excellence put into the atrium area. A book table, coffee shop, children's wing complete with what seemed like an incredible security sign in area, brochure/pamphlet happy plastic tower... walking into service, there were lovely people welcoming everyone inside... Everyone seemed quite mellow... I wasn't sure if that was due to the early morning hours, even though it was about 930 in the morning. Once the worship part of the service started, I realized it was part of the Methodist culture. It was quite heartfelt, but no-one moved and stood in place rather still and serene-like. I knew 2 out of the 4 songs that were done and it was led with an acoustic guitar, piano, and a few singers. The Rev. Adam Hamilton then greeted us dressed in a full robe. He began to share about the missions adventures that the church was involved with including Haiti which generated crazy excitement within my heart... and then shared and presented a video about what the church is doing to empower other Methodist churches around the county. Hearing that was so refreshing to my spirit....seeing the beauty of unifying as the body of Christ instead of competing. Books were passed down each row of seats where each person was asked to fill our their names and information. One side of the book was for members and the other side for first time guests.  Rev. Adam Hamilton informed that once the books went down the row, to send it back down once again so that everyone could see who was sitting in their row with them. So, the sermon was the last week of their financial peace series "The Secret of Happiness"... The main points encompassed: 4 things that bring happiness...
             #1: Relationships (quality of their relationships)
             #2: Gratitude (regularly counting their blessings)
             #3: Acts of Kindness
                     ...he gave an interesting inspirational thought: 90% is how you respond to your life, only 10% plays a part in your happiness based on your current situation
              #4: Generosity
                               "You make a living by what you get, you make a life out of what you give."
                                                                                       -Winston Churchill

One thing I thoroughly enjoyed about the sermon was that he talked about my tattoo: hessed!!!! Love it!!! Inside of the bulletin was a foldout called a "GPS: GROW. PRAY. STUDY. It is equipped with a deeper study of the text that the sermon touched on... each day has a passage to read, thought provoking questions, and one day (Saturday) even contains a family activity. In the GPS is a prayer journal: a scripted prayer to be prayed all week and on the flip side of the bookmark like addition is my favorite part of the GPS: "Lifting Up Our Church Family in Prayer" are names of people that need "prayers for health and healing... church family undergoing long-term medical treatment...prayers for comfort... and prayers for the military" ...love it!!

It quite interesting how I came in and left and not one person said hello or greeted me... I understand the why. Just interesting.  I don't see myself becoming a Methodist, however, one key element that I found truly inspirational about the Methodist denomination is their intentionality (methodical elements) of going after God. Combined with a passion for God and seeing the heart of God for intimate relationship could be incredibly nuclearly powerful!!!

Well, I've decided that this Sunday I am going to go to a Catholic church. The majority of my extended family home in Cleveland are from the Catholic denominations, so, I have been to quite a few Catholic weddings and funerals. My parents were both from Catholic backgrounds... my Dad even shares about being an altar boy, and my Mom shares about how she would come in and grab a program and skip mass *smile*... but, I actually have never been to a mass. I do know some of the responsive prayers.. I learned that I knew this at an Aunt's wedding when I knew how to respond  because of one of my favorite movies: "While You Were Sleeping"... so, this weekend, I am going to attend St. Thomas Moore's Catholic mass. *smile*

Thursday, November 24, 2011

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"sometimes I don't feel like singing to God. But I know that my circumstance in this season doesn't change that God is still God or what God has called me to be or called me to do. He still reigns and is on the throne."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FPiKxuwitCU&feature=related

wow... that's me... I haven't experienced that level of deep pain and yet, choosing to get up and take each day and go after God..even when I don't feel it.

Today I woke up dizzy and weak... and after a day of blah and allowing my body to rest and heal... I'm not feeling a lot of feelings and the emotions with God, but standing in that place of "I know this is who You are."

And that... I see throughout the craziness of this season, that God has huge purpose for me "for such a time as this." .. in all of the emotions, circumstances...

"Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look forward in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace."

I love it.. how He does that! But I have to keep choosing...no matter what. Because He truly is worth it all.... Jesus, God, Holy Spirit... in these first few minutes of Thanksgiving, I choose to stop and thank you for who You are and Your crazy love for me. You are God...in all of Your gloriousness, Your truth, Your beauty, Your power, Your faithfulness and Your love... *smile*

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Oh...the beauty of the unknown...

Keeping Me Guessing

Coffee cup waking me up
I’ve got to board a plane
And fly away sometimes
I feel like I’m going the speed of light
Can’t relax I’m moving too fast
I want to find the gold but I don’t have a map
I wish that I could know what you’ve got in store for me

I try and try
To read your mind
‘Cause I forget that patience is a virtue
You’re teaching me to hold on tight

‘Cause I don’t know how the story ends
But I’ll be alright ‘cause You wrote it
I don’t know where the highway bends
But I’m doing just fine
‘Cause You’re in control
Even when I don’t know
Where my life’s gonna go
You’re keeping me guessing
So slow me down
Show me around
I want to see the world
That I’ve been without
I am here and now
The future is out of my hands

I’m trusting you
And how you move
I won’t forget that patience is a virtue
You’re teaching me to hold on tight
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You know those moments when you hear a song and you feel like you're living it out... for real. Well, I heard this one here in Tennessee (I'm here visiting and enjoying my KY "adopted" family- the D'Alecy's... and I was scanning through their Itunes and found this one and I swept away... love it!!!!

ps- I LOVE the D'Alecy family...they are and have been such a huge blessing... just being with them..laughing, deep conversation, random conversation, adventuring... it's one of those moments where you stop and sit in the moment of "seriously, how lucky am i?" ... it's so so great!!! And the gorgeousness of Tennessee... *smile*... amazingness!!!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

November in Missouri/Kansas...

random KC fact... i think I like Kansas better than Missouri. I think that there is this country element there that reminds me of my dear Kentucky.

*So, I feel the lyrics of this song echo forth some of what God might have had up His sleeve bringing me here... this crazy Kansas City adventure...

"I Will Waste My Life" by: Misty Edwards
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I will waste my life I'll be tested and tried
With no regrets inside of me to find I'm at Your feet

I'll leave my father's house and I'll leave my mother
I'll leave all I have known and I'll have no other

I am in love with You There is no cost
I am in love with You There is no loss
I am in love with You I want to take Your name
I am in love with You I want to cling to You Jesus
Just let me cling to You Jesus

I'll say goodbye to my father my mother
I'll turn my back on every other love and
I'll press on yes I'll press on
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It's hard...some days are harder than others. And yet, when Jesus whispers in my heart that all He wants is to be with me, it makes the difficulty and loneliness worth it. Truly.


Confession: today, I felt Jesus wanted me to step out and do something... a hard something, and I did not want to do it...it's been quite a while since I felt this strongly for not doing something. I didn't do it. He's given me another chance to do what He is asking.  I know that He knows better than I do... but oh goodness, I really don't want to do it. 


FEAR...why does fear seem to seep into our lives so easily. And when fear does seep in, it grows, festers, and gets worse. "Perfect love casts out all fear" ... "Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord God..is with you" ... "Fear Not" ... "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and a sound mind"... i know the truths of fear and yet i so easily allow it within my heart and life. Disgusting.


So... I have intentions... the follow through...this, this is what I'm fighting for. Like, a six pack by Christmas. A girly six pack (and yes, I mean ab's) *smile*... I have wanted it since I was 15. So, here I go. I'm going to do it...it's not going to be easy. This I know, but I have to fight, I want to fight for it.  Also, a deeper, rooted, intimate depth in my relationship with Jesus. I want this loneliness, this season of not really having community around me to thrust me into the arms of my God. Not just a scheduled amount of time... but to run to him, to listen, to want to just be with Jesus. Not being I have to, or need to, but sheerly because I need to and there's no where else I would rather be.  


I do wonder why in the world I chose Kansas City for this adventure. And yet, I see, I see glimpses that being here may not be about Kansas City as much as my heart's response and my heart relationship with my Jesus.


Another thing... I was talking with my Mom and came up with an idea to church hop.  And not just to find a church I like and want to be apart of. But intentionally going to different churches and denominations. Ummm...okay I went to spell denominations and it came out demoninations.... maybe it was just my funky typing ability or maybe it's a Holy Spirit wake up call to allow small differences to divide us. To divide the Bride of Christ based on different perspectives. One of my best friends has one of the best visuals to explain perspective. The water bottle illustration- I may be seeing the nutrition facts and ingredients and you may be seeing the logo... we're looking at the same bottle, with just different perspective. So, this is the idea: to go to different churches each week with the intention to learn about what that denomination believes.  To go prepared and studied up, and then to come back and blog or digest it. It's like Bible School lived out loud *smile*.... Interesting, eh? Hmm... i guess we'll see *smile*... I really, really like this idea... it could have massive purpose to it!


"i don't care what they say, I'm in love with you"


Jesus, everything makes sense when I'm with you. I trust you to light the path... to lead.. to guide. I'm clinging to you! Because I want to.