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It came. I knew it would. Realist, not skeptic. It was all too Superman and little Clark Kent. The storm came. I am thankful that it came… 

I'm left to deal with the ramifications of someone else's selfish decision. I feel betrayal, hurt, some anger, and oh so many questions swirling within me. I trusted a friend…. I am so incredibly thankful for honesty, which I can just feel Holy Spirit within the honesty. I could never in a trillion years have guessed I would be where I am, but here I am. I knew there was a risk. I even said to a friend, it could be messy, but I will and will always choose to risk. People are worth the risk. I do believe in redemption and that somehow, someway, there will be beauty that comes from these seeming ashes. It is quite interesting the truth that has been revealed in the past few days within my own heart I did not know was there. In a "it makes me smile despite the crazy strangeness of this." I am so thankful for my friends and family's support, prayers, and love. And for a God who loves me and sees a bigger story than I do. It is interesting how this exploded and within twenty-four hours, I went back to feeling like me. Even in the chaos. The last time my heart was involved, that was not the case.

"Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, 'The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him." --- Lamentations 3:22-24----

Thursday, the day after the storm, I was listening to my "Glee Cast Channel" on Pandora and this song came on--- "Never Giving Up" by Melinda Dolittle…. these are the beautiful words that connected oh so powerful with my heart.

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I knew that I would have a great love story

That was when I wasn't scared to dream

I won't let a fear like that destroy me

I'm gonna believe

I'll turn the page to write my own love stories

Take my pen and write a brand new dream

I'm beautiful no matter what they tell me

I'm gonna believe

Even if it means my heart keeps breaking

Even if I lose my love's not changing

I'm never, I'm never giving up

Even if the phone leaves me broken

Even if you tell me its hopeless

I'm never, I'm never giving up

I'm never giving up, up

I will find the one who leaves me breathless

I will find the one who lets me dream

Finding love will be a risk worth taking

I'm gonna believe

I'm Stronger -- Stronger than you see

I'm Fighting -- Cuz I believe

I'm Never -- I'm never giving up

My Whole Life

My Whole Life in front of me

I Wont' Stop -- Until I see

I'm Never -- I'm never giving up

I'm never giving up, up

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